This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Daniel Rush who was born in United Kingdom on October 30, 1984 and passed away on March 01, 2003 at the age of 18



Daniel was killed after Lee Devlin smashed him across the head with a Hammer. He was imprisoned for Four and a half years in December 2003 for manslaughter in a young offenders institute as he was 19 years old .
He will be out on March 3rd 2006 ,two days after Daniels 3rd anniversary after serving just 2 years and 3 months. 

Perhaps you sent a lovely card
Or sat quietly in a chair
Perhaps you sent a funeral spray
If so we saw it there
Perhaps you spoke the kindest words 
As any friend could say
Perhaps you were not there at all
Just thought of us that day
Whatever you did to console our hearts
Thank you very much,whatever the part.
And when we have
remembered everything,
we grow afraid
of what we may forget.
A face, a voice, a smile?
No need to fear forgetting,
because
The heart remembers always. 











He Only Took My Hand

Last night while I was trying to sleep,
my son's voice I did hear,
I opened my eyes and I looked around,
but he did not appear.

He said, "Mum, you've got to listen,
you've got to understand,
God didn't take me from you, Mum,
He only took my hand.

He pulled me up and saved me,
From the misery and pain.
My body was hurt so badly,
I could never be the same.

My search is really over now,
I've found happiness within,
All answers to my empty dreams
and all that might have been.

I love you all and miss you so,
And I'll always be nearby.
My body's gone forever,
But my spirit will never die.

And so, you must all go now,
And live, and understand....
God did not take me from you
He only took my hand".































Daniels Funeral was held at St Michaels church at 11 am Tuesday the 13th of May 2003.
After the church we went on to north Watford Cemetery where Daniel was placed at his resting place.
After the cemetery we followed on to the BK club, Sandown Road North Watford where we gave Daniel a send-off that he would of wanted if he had been here with us.
The funeral was a heartbreaking day for many and we never realised how many people knew Daniel and how much Daniel was loved.
There were so many people showing there respect .The police informed us there were over 600 mourners there.
We would like to offer our sincere Thanks to all those who both attended and participated in Daniel's funeral, regards the speeches, Choir ,Solo Singers and especially the coffin bearers and to all family and friends....
Thank you so much .





Once again Thank you all for your support .
With love from Daniel's family xxx 









I want to tell you about murder. You think it cannot touch your life? Well.. Let me tell you, no one is safe from it! It can happen to you, it can happen to your family. It can happen to your friends. Murder does not care about the colour of your skin. It does not care how much money you have in the bank. It does not care how much education you have. It does not care what religion you are. It does not care whether you are a bad person or good person. Murder will change your life forever.. I know.. Murder took my precious firstborn child.

Daniel was the oldest of four children, Scott, Chelcie and Tayla are his brother and sisters.
Daniel was very sporty when he was younger and played football up to the age of 16 for a club called Evergreen in Watford in Hertfordshire.
Daniel was an excellent swimmer and all round sportsman.
He was scouted for an athletics team in Harrow but didn't actually pursue it as it would interfere with other commitments.
Daniel went to St Catherine of Sienna infants and Juniors then went on to St Michaels Secondary School in Garston, Watford ,Hertfordshire.
He also went to Cubs and Scouts even thou he started getting embarrased with the uniform at 15, he used to make me laugh when he would put an ordinary top over his uniform in case someone saw him, how funny that was, he wouldn't get out of the car with his uniform on apart from going to scouts.
Daniel was very popular from an early age to becoming a young man and always had alot of friends around him .
Dan was good at Athletics ,Football and Basketball.
He supported Liverpool Football Club, how proud he would have been seeing them win the Champion League .
Daniel was learning Carpentry before he died and worked along side his Dad and Uncle for his dad's building firm.
Daniel loved music, he was really into Drum and Base in the last few years of his life, going to all the raves up in Milton Keynes and then down into London with all his mates.
Thats all you ever heard was music playing when Dan was in.
He was a great son with a wicked sense of humour and our family miss him so much in our lives,as do all his friends.

WHISPERS FROM HEAVEN

<sup>They say that life is fleeting
I know that this is true
I left this world so quickly
With no goodbye to you.

I know how much you miss me
Your tears fall ever light
The pillow where you lay your head
Is wet with them at night.

I know your heart is hurting
the words we left, unsaid
I love you's, left unspoken
Are spinning in your head.

The strength that I have carried
That served to make you whole
Remain to make you stronger
Within your grieving soul.

For you see, while you were weeping
On the day I passed away
At the gravesite near the flowers
Where my loved ones knelt to pray.

An angel came to see me
She took me by the hand
She led me to a kingdom
In a very distant land.

As I look down from heaven
And see you standing there
Your heart so ever burdened
With more grief than it can bear.

I long to bring you comfort
I long to give you peace
I long to hold you closely
Cause all your tears to cease.

The joy I've found in heaven
Goes far beyond compare
The love that's so elusive
Can be found here everywhere.

The light is softly shining
There's no storm clouds here or rain
There's no teardrops found in heaven
There's no suffering, there's no pain.

You needn't be so troubled
Stay close to God and pray
That someday we'll be together
One bright and glorious day.

So My love, you shouldn't question
My dear you need not cry
I've gone to be with Jesus
I really didn't die. 















Maureen French  21/11/1946-27/11/2006
Daniels Nan died aged 60


Taken One week before she

 died on her work leaving do






HAPPINESS DENIED

The times I didn’t sleep until
I heard you come through the door
I listen now, but realise
You’ll come through the door no more

I worried for you oh so much
As mothers often do
No worries now, just heartache
Because I’m missing you

I’m tired and so very lonely
I’m numb with grief and pain
Will I ever feel well again?
Will I ever feel sane?

The “madness” comes in waves you see
Despair is hard to bear
I lost my dearest, precious son
And no one seems to care

I’m sure they do but life goes on
It’s just another sorrow
For someone else, but not for them
They’ll be OK tomorrow!

For me tomorrow will not come
It will always be “today”
The day I heard that you had died
The day you went away

I live the moment every day
And many tears I’ve cried
For I knew then true happiness
Forever would be denied

Loving and missing you. Mum xxxxx

author unknown2me 




 TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH

If we could have a lifetime, A dream that would come true,

We'd pray to god with all our heart,

for yesterday and you,

A thousand words can't bring you back,

we know because we've tried, And neither will a million tears,

we know because we've cried,

You left behind our broken hearts,

And happy memories too,

But we never wanted memories, We only wanted you.


"He shall not grow old,
as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary
him nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun,
and in the morning,
We will remember him."




Miss me but let me go


When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.

For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds.
Miss me, but let me go.






                                   




           The Wings Of An Angel
             So Pure And So White,
              The Wings Of An Angel
                 Holding You Tight,
                  The Wings Of An Angel 
                   Caressing Your Skin,

                      The Wings Of An Angel
                        Keeping The Love Within.
                          These Wings From An Angel
                             Are My Gift To You,
                                  These Wings From An Angel 
will help see you through
                                     

   







Wherever a beautiful soul has walked there are
a trail of beautiful memories 
  





      To Where You Are

Who can say for certain, maybe you're still here.
I feel you all around me, your memory's so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak.
You're still an inspiration can it be
That you are mine, forever love
And you are watching over me from up above.Fly me up to where you are beyond a distant star 
I wish upon tonight to see you smile
If only for a while to know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are.I can see things, here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing, Oh how can't we see.
As my heart holds you just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me every day.
'Cos you are mine, forever love,
Watching me, from up above
And I believe that angels weep
And that love will live on and never leave
I know you're there,
A breath away's not far to where you are. 






BUT A MOMENT 
 
You'll always be my child-I think of you each day, 
Even though you must remain so very far away. 
A love as strong as this, I've never felt before, 
But you had to go away-up through heaven's door. 
You'll never have to suffer, or feel pain or hate, 
just peace and love and happiness- 
God has given you this fate. 
I hope that you can feel just how much I care,
 And, When my days are over, in a flash-I will be there. 
Pure abounding joy! We'll never have to part. 
You'll be right by my side-And not just in my heart. 
But, until that day, when my dream is real- 
 I think I understand, just how I should feel... 
"Mum, I am fine!" this must be what you would say- 
"Please don't be so sad, we'll meet again one day: 
I'm with God above - so don't cry for me, 
Our parting is but a moment  
compared to eternity." 





 
''Death leaves a heartache no one can heal 
Love leaves a memory no one can steal''</sup> 
 

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We will remember him forever.

A Bible you won't find this in,
for it's a special Prayer from me.
To let you know you're in my heart,
and forever you will be.
You've always been there for me,
I hope you'll always know.
Your presence seemed to warm me,
I love you, heart & soul.
I'll always keep you near me,
the memories I shall treasure.
My love will always be with you,
forever and ever and ever
Lord please protect our Angel,
he's loved by many here.
Please make him happy once again,
and take away my tears.
I'll miss our precious moments,
I now speak his name in Prayers.
Heaven has one more Angel,
for he walked up the Golden Stairs




I have a handsome son and Daniel is his name.  
Since he died and went to heaven, my life hasn't been the same. 
 
I have cried many a river and prayed enough to move a hill.  
It is hard to stay without him although I feel him with me still. 
 
I search to find something to ease a little of this awful pain  
And I am trying to be patient until it's time for me to be with him again. 
 

I know that he knows how much I love him and that he is my shining star  
he only lived for 18 years but he stretched his love and laughter far.  

I search the sky after dark, looking for his light  
And when I think I've found it, I commit it to my sight.  


I was so very lucky to be blessed with my lovely handsome son  
Who had grown into such a lovely man before he left this world. 
 
But he'll always be my baby until it is my time to go  
And then I'll be beside him for eternity--this is something that I know.  

So I will stay and complete my journey and make him proud of me.  

And when we are together again both our spirits will be truly free. 
 
written by another bereaved mother, adapted for Daniel.


There is a special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.
He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.
He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love.
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
I'll see you standing there
You look at me with a smile
"Life isn't always fair" 
You say you were chosen for his garden
His preciously hand picked bouquet
"God really needed me,
That's why I couldn't stay"
It's said to be that angels 
Are sent from above
I've always had my angel
My brother - whose heart was filled with love
Wherever the ocean meets the sky
There will be memories of you and I
When I look up at that sky so blue
All I see are visions of you
"While there's a heart in me, you'll always be a part of me".
You can shed tears that he’s gone or you can smile because he has lived. 


You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back or you can open your eyes and see all he's left. 
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday or you can be happy tomorrow because of yesterday. 
You can remember him and only that he's gone or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back, or you can do what he'd want; smile, open your eyes, love and go on. 
All i could ever wish for is to just see you that one more time, just one more more time to say the things i never got to say, just to hold you one final time and tell you i love. One more time to hear you tell me it will be ok, One more time for you to tell me you love me, One more time to kiss me and say i will always be here for you, just that one more time to see your face feel your touch, just one more time, thats all im asking for is that one more time xxx 





Gone but never forgotton
You were so full of life,
Always smiling and carefree,
Life loved you being a part of it,
And I loved you being a part of me.
You could make anyone laugh,
If they were having a bad day,
No matter how sad I was,
You could take the hurt away.
Nothing could ever stop you,
Or even make you fall,
You were ready to take on the world,
Ready to do it all.
But God decided he needed you,
So from this world you left,
But you took a piece of all of us,
Our hearts are what you kept.
Your seat is now empty,
And it's hard not to see your face,
But please always know this,
No one will ever take your place.
You left without a warning,
Not even saying good-bye,
And I can't seem to stop,
Asking the question why?
Nothing will ever be the same,
The halls are empty without your laughter,
But I know you're in Heaven,
Watching over us and looking after.
I didn't see this coming,
It hit me by surprise,
And when you left this world,
A small part of me died.
Your smile could brighten anyone's day,
No matter what they were going through, 





As life goes on without you and days
turn into years,
We have many wonderful
memories and a million silent tears,
Remembering you is easy;
we do it every day,
Missing you is the heartache that
never goes away. When the warmth of the sun touches my face,
I see your smile and feel your embrace.
I hear the whisper of love in the wind
And I know that you are close to me again
The rain speaks of tears and the thunder of pain,
But soon the sun comes the earth to reclaim.
As the days come and go and the world moves on,
I know you're still here, you'll never be gone.
On the night the Angel came and took your hand,
We cried as you left for an unknown land. 
But Heaven rejoiced as you came into sight,
For your soul was a diamond, shining so bright! 
Even though I cannot see
I know he's up there watching over me
I swear sometimes I hear his voice
His leaving us was not his choice
I miss our talks that we once had
He was always there for me through good times and bad
He could cheer me up when no one else could
Even when I didn't think it was possible - he always would
I wish he would have known how much he meant to me
I wish he would have, I wish he could have seen
He will forever be my guiding wings
And help me get through all the hard things
I know he's in heaven having lots of fun
Wearing a halo that shines golden like the sun
But still every time I look up to the sky
I bow my head and I cry and I cry
I know he's looking, wanting me to be tough
But for me these times are just too rough
He was always my life long best friend
And it is a shame his life had to come to an end
Rest In Peace Daniel xXx 



A MiLLi0n WoRDs Would Not Bring You Back, I Kn0w, BecauseI've Tried. Neither Would A Million TeaRs. I Know, BeCause I've Cried

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there.
I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that swiftly blow.
I am the diamond glint
on newly fallen snow.
I am the sunlight
on ripened grain.
I am the soft and gentle autumn rain
When you wake from sleep in the early morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft, starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there.
I do not sleep. You never said 'I am leaving',
You never said 'goodbye'.
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why. 





A million times I need you,
A million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart a place you hold,
No one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone,
A part of me went with you,
The day God took you home. Thought the many years we spend together,
There were many memories
Some happy,
And some sad.
But all I will treasure
For the rest of my life.
You were a part of me,
You were apart of my heart
You were apart of my life,
You were my Brother.
But now you’re gone,
You went so suddenly… So quick
Without even saying good-bye
And when you went you took a part of me to,
A piece of my heart is now missing,
But it’s kept with you in heaven above.
But yet I’m still so confused
Why did you leave me?
Why did you leave us?
You were so young
There was so much left for you to do
You were only a young man
You were MY BROTHER!
I just don’t understand why you left
But they say God picks the best
So I guess he choose you
My tears were silent
So full of grief and pain,
I always got asked if there was anything any one could do,
But unless there a miracle maker,
And can make my ultimate wish come true,
Then there’s nothing on earth any one can do.
All I wanted was my brother,
To be at my side and alive,
All I wanted was my brother…
My brother is in a better place now
A place with no Violence hatred or pain
A place called heaven 
And that’s were we will meet again.
Rest In peace To Our Darling Angel  xxx 
Love Scott ,Chelcie and Tayla  xx

MuM Please Listen To Me

Mum please listen to me
As I take time to write.
I see parents struggling daily.
Their pain is such a fight...

All of us who have gone
And left the rest of you behind…
We’re ok. Mum, I promise…
Heaven is beautiful, and God is kind.

You used to tell me that one day
God would call and take you home.
You told me you’d make me strong
So I would stand tall when alone.

But things happen sometimes, Mum
That does not go in our plans,
I wasn’t scared, Mum,
When God held out his hand.

I didn’t want to leave you.
I didn’t have time to say Good bye
When the angels said, "Come with us"
There wasn’t time to question why.

I’ve watched you daily, Mum.
It hurts to see you cry.
I don’t want you to be unhappy,
Just because we didn’t get to say Goodbye

Tell the others what I’m telling you,
So many parents need to know
That Earth was just a lay over
We had another place to go.

I know you miss me, Mum
I know your heart was broken in two.
But God really needed me
Because my earthly life was through.

I’m always alongside you…
I smile and touch your hair.
I whisper "Mum, I love you"You just can’t see me there.

I’m the one who gently touches you
On your shoulder when you’re sad
I’m Happy now that you finally found
God again, and are no longer mad.

Tell the parents, Mum, for me
That all of us kids are okay.
God had plans for our lives
When he called us home that day.

I love you, Mum, I always will
And remember I’m not far away.
We’re going to be together
When God calls out your name.
~ Author Unknown

I’ll never let my child go even though he died.
He’s with me every minute in the pain I feel inside.
When that dreadful thing happened I thought I might forget
His voice, his shape, his smile, his words – it hasn’t happened yet.
He’s in my every waking thought, in all the tears I’ve cried,
In every step throughout my life I’ll walk with him inside.
So in this constant agony when it hurts too much to bear
It’s just his way of telling me that always he’ll be there.




Life goes on
so they say
and I suppose it does
but in a different way

A life without you in it
Without your smile
without your noise
Once upon a time I had 2 boys

A life with sadness
and regret
We never got to say goodbye
and we sit and wonder why

A life changed forever
how can this be
that we can go on
without thee

Life goes on
I know it's true
But we'll never stop
loving and missing you



TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH

If we could have a lifetime, A dream that would come true,

We'd pray to god with all our heart,

for yesterday and you,

A thousand words can't bring you back,

we know because we've tried, And neither will a million tears,

we know because we've cried,

You left behind our broken hearts,

And happy memories too,

But we never wanted memories, We only wanted You.



We Remember our children in every breath that we take
and in our hearts are where our children remain forever alive
through our loving memory's of them, they will never die.


His star burned bright
For family and friends,
A future full of promise and years.
How could we know
His time was so short
Leaving only emptiness and tears.

One moment a child
To be cuddled and held,
The next, a young man so strong.
It's hard to believe he has left us behind.
It's hard to believe he is gone.

His star burns bright
For all to see,
A beacon a guiding light.
For he shines down
From the heavens above
And everything will be all right.

                                                                               





  




Our loved ones may pass on,
but they never really go,
we miss seeing, touching, feeling them,
yet theyre still there you know.

We cant have a family gathering
without including them in,
angels dont need invites,
theyre always welcomed in.

and when the rest of us pass on,
and its our turn to bid goodbye,
god will hold a family banquet
at his palace in the sky.

we will have our blessed reunion,
like never held before,
with our precious angel family
together forever more.xx

We all must go full circle 
From God's hand  
Into the hand of God 
Know that no life is a life cut short 
For all are lives completed



To My dearest Family....
There are some things I would like to say, but first of all, to let you know, that I have arrived okay.
 I'm writing this letter from Heaven, here I dwell with God above, where there is no more tears of ;sadness...there is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy, just because I am out of sight. Remember that I am with you, every morning, noon, and night.
 The day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and said I welcome you and it is good to have you back again.
You were missed while you were gone and as for your dear family, they will be here later on.
I need you here badly, as you are part of my plan and there is so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.
God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do, and foremost on the list was to watch and care for you.
When you lie in bed at night, with the days chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you... in the middle of the night.
 When
you think of my life on Earth, and all those loving years,
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
 But do not be afraid to cry, it does help to relieve pain,
 remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.
 I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you really would not understand.
There is one thing that is for certain, although my life on earth is over, I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb. But together we can do it by just taking one day at a time.
 It was always my philosophy and I'd like it to be for you too.
 That as you give unto the World, the World will give back to you.
 If you can ever help somebody who is in sorrow and pain, then you can say to God at night...
My day was not in vain.
For now I am contented,
that my life was worth while knowing as I passed along the way, I was able to make somebody smile.
 So if you meet
somebody who is sad and feeling low...
 just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
 When you are walking down the street and you have got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
 And when it's time for you to go from that body to be free, remember that you're not going...
 you are coming here to me.
No longer will the sun be your light by day or the moon be your light by night,
 I, the Lord, will be your eternal light, the light of my glory will shine on you.
 Your days of grief will come to an end.

 





Gone but never forgotton

You were so full of life,
Always smiling and carefree,
Life loved you being a part of it,
And I loved you being a part of me.

You could make anyone laugh,
If they were having a bad day,
No matter how sad I was,
You could take the hurt away.

Nothing could every stop you,
Or even make you fall,
You were ready to take on the world,
Ready to do it all.

But God decided he needed you,
So from this world you left,
But you took a piece of all of us,
Our hearts are what you kept.

Your seat is now empty,
And it's hard not to see your face,
But please always know this,
No one will ever take your place.

You left without a warning,
Not even saying good-bye,
And I can't seem to stop,
Asking the question why?

Nothing will ever be the same,
The halls are empty without your laughter,
But I know you're in Heaven,
Watching over us and looking after.

I didn't see this coming,
It hit me by surprise,
And when you left this world,
A small part of me died.

Your smile could brighten anyone's day,
No matter what they were going through,
And I know everyday for the rest of my life,I'll be missing you.


 


YOU'LL ALWAYS BE YOUNG 
MY BEAUTIFUL CHILD, 
LIKE A SONG TO BE SUNG 
YOU STAYED FOR A WHILE. 
 
THOUGH YOU HAD A SHORT LIFE 
IT WAS A LIFE TIME FOR ME 
YOU MADE ME SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY 
 
I THANK YOU FOR THE LOVE YOU GAVE 
FOR THE SMILES AND LAUGHTER 
THAT WILL NEVER FADE 
 
YOU WERE APART OF ME AND I  
A PART OF YOU  
FOREVER AS ONE 
YOU WILL BE FOREVER YOUNG 


Death is nothing at all. 
I have only slipped into the next room. 
I am I, and you are you. 
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are. 
Call me by my old familiar name,  
speak to me in the easy way in which you always used. 
Put no difference in your tone,  
wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. 
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together. 
Pray smile, think of me, let my name be ever the household word that it always was,  
let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it. 
Life means all that it ever meant. 
It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity. 
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?. 
I am waiting for you for an interval, somewhere near, just around the corner.  
All is well.





we could not feel such sorrow if we had not felt such joy.







It should be getting easier I often hear you say 
The time is passing quickly since your son went away 
It must be getting better as I see you smile a lot 
And time is such a healer 
So they say! 
 
Life must be feeling normal now 
Although I know it takes a little time 
But when I lost someone 
A year later I was fine 
Oh yes, I cried on birthdays 
You know the kind of thing 
A tear or two and sadness 
But time is such a healer 
So they say! 
 
It's lovely to remember them with smiles you say 
And all those memories will help take the pain away 
I cannot even go there 
If I do I know I'll die 
You seem surprised at thoughts like that 
You think I've lost my mind 
You believe that time's a healer  
So they say! 
 
Well it isn't getting easier I'd like you all to hear 
Life is just as painful 
With every passing year 
But I've had a lot of training 
And my acting skills are great 
I could beat an Oscar hopeful any day! 
You stare at me in wonder 
How can she feel such pain? 
After all time is such a healer 
So they say! 




 

Once upon a time 
a beautiful son was born unto me, 
He brought so much joy and love 
till his death at age eighteen. 
 
My heart remains so heavy 
since that day when he died, 
I know it’s weighted with more tears 
that I have yet to cry. 
 
Outwardly, I’m moving along; 
you say, “that’s good to see”. 
But you don’t know about the quiet times 
when I’m alone with me. 
 
I think about his passing, 
how I’ll never be the same 
Sorrow is a part of my life, 
it enters daily as I whisper Dan’s name. 
 
Oh yes, I smile, I laugh, 
and I go about my work each day 
As I carry on with my life 
in a façade kind of way. 
 
For behind my outward appearance, 
way down deep inside my soul 
Is the pain that’s with me always, 
for the child I long to hold. 
 
One day passes another, the years will continue on 
I’ve had days of joy and laughter, 
but in my silence it’s him I reflect on. 
 
I’m not the “me” that I once knew, 
I changed three years ago, 
When life showed me the suffering 
and pain no one should ever know. 
 
Yes, once upon a time, 
a beautiful son was born unto me, 
And I thought I’d live happily ever after, 
but I can’t 
 
For what I want most can never, ever be. 
 Love & Miss you always & forever 
Mum xx 




I Thought Of You

As the sun came up today
I thought of you

As I heard the birds sing today
I thought of you

As the rain sofly fell today
I thought of you

As the tears trickled down my face today
I thought of you

As I looked towards heaven today
I thought of you

 Yesterday and tomorrow will be as today
I thought of you

I miss you Daniel
Love, Mum

Lucky to have known you 
Lucky to have shared 
The moments that we lived through 
Lucky to have cared 
Lucky that we loved you 
Lucky to be blessed 
With the knowledge that you loved us 
Lucky to possess 
The happiness you gave us 
Lucky to have been 
The ones to have and hold you 
To share that loving smile 
Lucky to have seen 
How whole love can make you 
If only for a while 
Lucky to have known you 
Lucky to have shared 
The moments that we lived through 
Lucky to have cared.




 When I am gone, release me- let me go.
I have so many things to see and do.
You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears,
Be happy that we had so many years.


I gave to you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love
You each have shown
But now it's time I traveled on alone.

So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must,
Then let your grief be conforted by trust.
It's only for a while that we must part.
So bless the memories within your heart.

I won't be far away for life goes on,
So if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me,
I'll be near
And if you listen
with your heart you'll hear
All of my love around you
speaking soft and clear.

And then, when you
Must come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile
And say to you "Welcome Home."



No Person is Ever Truly Alone 
by Richard Fife  
 
No person is ever truly alone. 
Those who live no more, 
Whom we loved, 
Echo still within our thoughts,  
Our words, our hearts. 
And what they did 
And who they were 
Becomes a part of all that we are, 
Forever.  









Dancing With the Angels 
by Monk and Neagle

Memories surround me
But sadness has found me
I’d do anything for more time
Never before has someone meant more
And I can’t get you out of my mind
There is so much that I don’t understand
But I know

You’re dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
Dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you’re dancing with the angels 

You had love for your family
Love for all people
Love for the Father, and Son
Your heart will be heard
In your unspoken words
Through generations to come
There is so much that I don’t understand
But I know 

You’re dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You’re dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you’re dancing

We’re only here for such a short time
I’m gonna stand up, Shout out
And sing Hallelujah
One day I’ll see you again

And we'll be dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
Dancing with the angels
Heaven will fill our eyes
When we're dancing with the angels
We'll be dancing with the angels....